Another early morning, unable to sleep, sitting on the back doorstep, breathing in the cold night air and trying to calm the rising panic that's building inside of me. From when I open my eyes until they finally close way…
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It's late, the house is quiet. These late nights and early mornings are my favourite time to write, when the rest of the world is sleeping, and in the silence I can hear my thoughts clearly. It's been a long…
Everything you need, your courage, strength, compassion and love; everything you need is already within you. 3am. It's dark, cold and oh so quiet. In a house which is so full of life all day long, this silence is deafening.…
Sitting on the doorstep, watching the sun slowly rise over my garden, listening to the morning sounds of a world waking up. I've a giant mug of coffee and a cigarette. Trying to crush the feeling of hopelessness in my…
I've gotten used to looking at the world from below. Curled in a ball on the floor, tears streaming, breath coming in fits. There have been so many nights spent on the floor. Trying to hold on. To breath. To…
2016 This will go down as the year that broke me, brought me to my knees. Showed me heartbreak like I could never imagine, and took me to the darkest depths of my mind. The year I learnt that no…
It's late morning, I'm curled up in his car. Today is the boy's second birthday and we're heading out to the sea for a 'family' day out. The sun is shining, though the ground is covered in frost still. ย …
I was raised to see vulnerability as a weakness. Told to not talk about our feelings, to put on a mask, pretend everything is fine - that it's all about appearances and seeming to be perfect. I've built a life on…
It was quarter to four in the morning, an ordinary Sunday morning, when my world fell apart. I woke from the depths of sleep, my toddler nestled beside me, as you stumbled into the room. I could tell you were…
As I'm writing this, it's Saturday night. My husband is at work, the littlest two asleep, the bigger two in their beds reading. I've been busy all day, 'Autumn Cleaning' the house, sorting through things ready for a car-boot sale…