A pre-Christmas life update

9 days to go. I haven’t been on here to just write for so long, life seems a bit all over the place right now. I thought I should pop in and catch up before the year is over!

This year hasn’t been what I expected or hoped for. I’ve been struggling with feeling low and disconnected on and off for most of the year. Some days it is all just a little too much. Yet I am still here, and life, while hard, is not bad. There is so much good too.

I’m very aware that I am often my own worst enemy, building walls that make me feel more isolated and lonely. Not reaching out, and keeping a distance. I often feel like I’m on the outside of everything looking in.

I feel like it is time for some big changes, but I am not sure what just yet.

Anyway, December. It has flown by and we’ve been so busy. Every day has been jam packed and I am honestly exhausted. The gifts are all bought, and nearly all wrapped. I’ve done part of the food shop – just have to buy fresh things this week.

Lola comes home from Uni in a couple of days and I can’t wait to have everyone under one roof for a couple of weeks.

We’ve been enjoying lots of festive fun… Kiki and Baya’s Christmas Gymnastic Shows, Breakfast with Santa, lots of Christmas crafting, parties with friends…. I took the littlest three yesterday to North Hills Farm to visit the reindeer. It was such a wonderful experience, and absolutely worth the £15 – already looking forward to going again next year!

We’ve a few more festive treats planned this coming week, and then I am looking forward to ten days when we don’t have to go anywhere if we don’t want! Christmas and Beasties birthday and lots of lazy days at home!

I hope you all have a fantastic Christmas xx