Dear Bean – Week Thirty Nine

Dear Bean

We are so close to meeting you. I cannot wait, for know the moment I hold you in my arms, my anxiety and fear and worry will melt away.

My hormones are all over right now, I am crazily tired and walking feels like he’s about to fall out any minute! I’ve been sleeping ok, waking a couple of times to go to the loo, and having really vivid dreams. I’m achy, but not as bad as I was earlier in pregnancy.

I talked yesterday about the anxiety I have around going through labour and delivery as a single Mama. Acknowledging that anxiety made me feel a lot better, while it’s still there, and I am still worried, putting it out there rather than just trying to pretend it’s all OK actually helped. It’s like anything, admitting and facing our fears always helps to dimish them.

I have an appointment with my midwife tomorrow, I’m planning on spending today eating pineapple and bouncing on the birthing ball – fingers crossed it does something!!