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R E A D I N G

I’ve just downloaded Brene Brown’s ‘The Gifts of Imperfection‘ to my kindle. I’ve been overdosing on cheesy, crappy fiction the past few weeks so it was time for a ‘real’ read. I’ve been feeling a little out of sorts lately, a little less than perfect, a little not quiet hitting the mark. It’s something I’ve always struggled with – that fight of not feeling worthy enough, of not feeling like I’m meeting everyone’s expectations. From being a child, I never felt that I was good enough – never felt that anyone liked me for me. So far, I’m loving this -will report back once I’m done.

T H I N K I N G

About where I’m going. I’ve been feeling a little thoughtful lately, wondering where I am heading in this life of mine. What it is I want to achieve and what is important. Trying to get unstuck from the day to day grind and step back to see the bigger picture. I’m finding it tricky right now to balance a baby, homeschooling and all the work I want/have to do. I’m sure there’s an answer somewhere but I’m yet to find it.

D O I N G

Everything and nothing all at once. Ever feel like that?! My days are crazy full, yet come bedtime I feel like I haven’t acheived anything save having fed four children numerous times! There is so much I want to get done, but Vega is keeping my hands pretty full right now and it’s hard to get very much of anything done.

E A T I N G

These  uh-mazing raw nut-butter fudge cups.. I spied them in my IG feed from the lovely Betsey and they called out my name! They didn’t disappoint – super tasty and not-quiet so guilt inducing! Well, unless you eat the whole lot in one go! Seriously though, my diet lately is 90% cake {truth be told it has been since Vega was born}. Partly due to sheer exhaustion, and partly comfort eating. Sugar is my one and only guilty pleasure these days though I’m desperate to cut it out or at least reduce the amount I’m eating. After years of eating disorders and disordered eating, cutting things out always makes me feel terrible and bordering on crazy. I need to find a way to change my diet and stay sane ;)

W I S H I N G

For just one full nights sleep.. we’re still on two wake-ups most nights, and while they’re usually short ones it’s still taking its toll on me. Some days he’ll wake up once through the night, then wake up around 7 and want to sleep ON me {not next to me} for another hour. I can’t sleep sitting up, so I usually use that time as extra reading time, which is kinda nice but I’d rather an extra hours sleep!