Welcoming in the light

I’m stood in the kitchen, Oren is napping in the sling. There is incense burning, the sun is streaming through the window, the dog is by my feet and the radio is playing tunes.

One kiddo is upstairs revising, the rest out swimming with their Dad. It’s been a productive day. I’ve been potting up plant babies, I’ve taken one kiddo to an audition and had a coffee in Costa whilst waiting for her. I’ve tidied my bedroom and moved the bed around, done a couple of quick jobs in the garden and hoovered the downstairs.

Now I’m sneaking in some work/writing time whilst the baby naps.

Everything is done in snatched moments these days. Life with a baby means there is never quite enough time – at least not enough time when my hands are free. He has hit the stage of wanting to hold my fingers and walk around the house all day long. I’m not sure whether I’ll be relieved or more stressed when he finally learns to walk alone!

While occasionally I long for time to do the things i need to, time to write, or just sit.. I’m soaking up these days as they are all too fleeting. These days when I am the center of his world will soon be gone, and I will miss them. The things that are the hardest, are the things we miss the most. The need to be in my arms all day and night, the never having hands free, the not being allowed to go for a wee alone!

We had a houseful of friends for most of yesterday, I love the sound of the kiddos all playing whilst I sit and drink tea and set the world to rights. Single motherhood can be lonely, my weeks are built around the kiddos, and some weeks that doesn’t’ give us time to catch up with friends – at least as not as much as I need.

Imbolc this weekend has felt so perfect for how I am feeling. So ready for new life, and growth and beginnings.  So ready to welcome the returning of the light. I marked it with some journaling {you can get some journal prompts over on my other site here} as well as lighting some candles, a little cleaning and some gardening.

Saturday night found me and the kiddos gathered around the kitchen table, baby in bed, music playing and paints out. I love those times when it just flows, the love and the laughter reminding me of just how lucky I am.