Dear Bean – Week Thirty Seven

Holy Moly! Thirty Seven Weeks!!! I can not believe we’re almost at the finishing line already. in some ways, it feels like forever since I announced this baby was on his way, and even longer since I first saw those two lines on a stick.

Yet here we are, 37 weeks… the midwives are on call as from this week for my homebirth, so I guess some point in the next four weeks, I’m having a baby. Hopefully sooner rather than later please and thank you.

Everything is ready and in place, I’m feeling pretty good other than being tired and achy. Sleeping has been a little uncomfortable the past few nights, and I am so ready to be able to sleep on my front again!

I’m still struggling to get my head around the whole labor thing. Yes, I know I’ve done it before {more than once}, yet this will be the first time I’ve done it without a partner there. While I have a doula coming and friends who can come, it’s not quite the same and I’ve been avoiding thinking too much about this part of having a baby as quite honestly, it’s worrying me. And whenever I think about it, I end up crying so…. I’m sure when the time comes I will cope, I’ll find that inner strength and get through it, and afterward feel so empowered at giving birth again and alone.

Now it’s just a waiting game, although I have strict instructions from Kiki who is away this week not to give birth until she is home again!