Dear Bean – Week Eighteen

Dear Bean

Eighteen weeks – can’t believe how close I am to being halfway through this pregnancy! Time is flying by {a little too fast for my liking}. I’m feeling pretty good, lots of energy and happiness. The kiddos are still debating whether they want a girl or boy – so far it’s a 50/50 split! Me, I really don’t mind – I do think a boy would be nice to balance it out a little, so poor Beastie isn’t totally outnumbered as the only boy in the household.

Things are starting to come together nicely, plans are getting put in place for labour – making sure I have support for me as the thing that is worrying me most is labouring alone. In my previous four labours I always had my ex-husband on hand {he was good for letting me squeeze hands if nothing else}. The thought of it just being me {and the midwives ovbs} was making me nervous. But I have a friend lined up and hopefully a doula friend too. It’s vital to have that support, to know I’m not alone and a voice there to remind me I can do it. As I’m pretty sure there was a point in all four previous labours when I declared “I changed my mind, I don’t want to do this” haha!

I’ve been back on my mat practicing yoga the past couple of weeks, and it’s helping with the sciatica that I keep getting. It feels good to be moving again, and slowly getting my flexibility back after a couple of months of barely practising.

There is no hiding this belly of mine anymore, I’m still in my normal jeans, though I have had to employ the hairband trick!

No real cravings here yet, though I never did before especially, though this past week I have been ravenous! Seriously, I could eat all day long.