Oh baby!

It’s probably not gone un-noticed that things have been a little quiet around here for the past couple of months… well I have a very good excuse for why I’ve barely been around….

I’m busy cooking baby number five!

I found out super early, at about 4 weeks, so it feels like I’ve been pregnant forever already. I told my kiddos a few weeks ago, and they are all incredibly excited – though Beastie did ask if we could have a banana baby……. anyway! I had my dating scan yesterday, which bumped me up a week to 13 weeks, meaning we’re due mid-June 2019!

I’ve been feeling pretty rough for most of the 8 weeks I’ve known. All day morning sickness, ridiculously tired, and my hormones have been all over the show. I’ve been in tears pretty much constantly for all those eight weeks, at least it feels like that! I don’t remember feeling quite this bad in previous pregnancies, maybe it’s just age and having four other kiddos keeping me busy!

It wasn’t exactly planned, but we are all SO happy about it. There have been times I’ve wondered what on earth I’m doing, my ‘baby’ is almost four so I’m out of the nappy/breastfeeding/little baby stage, by the time this baby comes my eldest will be 16 and I’m starting all over again. The turmoil of the last couple of years has left me feeling a lot more vulnerable than I ever have, so truthfully, I am a little apprehensive about what the future holds.

I do know, though,  that this baby will be so loved, coming into a house full of people who will dote over it and help me out in those early days/weeks/months when we’re adjusting to a new normal. I’m excited to document this pregnancy, and cannot wait to meet our little one next year. After an early loss at the end of the summer, this has certainly helped heal the grief. My little rainbow baby

Now, keep your fingers crossed that the nausea goes and my hormones settle down as it would be nice to feel ‘normal’ for a little while at least!

I started writing letters to the baby on here when I first found out I was pregnant {that I’ve just made public instead of private posts!} – you can follow along with them here – ‘Dear Bean‘. I loved documenting my pregnancy with Beastie on here, and it is so wonderful to have it to look back on – looking forward to sharing my journey this time around again ♥

Here’s hoping the next 27 weeks or so are plain sailing!